I’ve only got 3 more days to make my move on early bird registration for this year’s BlogHer conference in NYC. The Bee has been on my case to sign-up for a while now but, as usual, I’ve decided my best bet is to wait until the last minute and then stress over the impending deadline. I am not even entirely sure that I belong at a place like that but here’s to finding out!
The crap side to this story is that this year’s conference falls ever so inconveniently on The Bee’s birthday and that means I’ll be there and he’ll be, well wherever he wants I guess. It’s his birthday. Maybe a full day away from me is the best birthday gift I could give him….
Needless to say, I’m torn
and chicken shit.
I’m just scared that it’s going to be me, alone, walking into a convention hall full of seasoned and sought-after bloggers only to end up sitting alone in a corner wishing I was just a speck of dirt on the carpet hoping some vacuum would come by and suck me up already.
Nobody likes to feel like a friendless loser but I suppose the only way to “make friends” is to just be present and try for chrissake.
My gramm likes to embarrass me by telling everyone that I’m “shy” when the truth is I generally like to sit back and observe my surroundings before jumping into anything headfirst. Being called shy generally drives me crazy, 1. because I don’t think I am and 2. because for whatever reason, when you are being referred to as such it just comes off negatively, like being that way is a major defect to one’s character.
That being said, I could use some feedback:
What would you do?
Will YOU be attending BlogHer ’10?
If yes, will you be my friend?
Any past BlogHer experiences/tips/suggestions you would like to share?
Am I freaking out unnecessarily or is it totally appropriate to feel like throwing up about something that’s still 6 months away?
Oh yeah, and THIS is the view from outside my window:
Pretty and all but, really, nature?
I think it’s high time to QUIT. IT.